Desiree Eileen Ramirez

Hi Desiree, I seen you in my dreams today. It was the best thing since you left. You smiled, lauged and gave me a big hug. I was able to tell you that I loved you very much. Thank God for me, It really made me happy.

Hi Dez, How are you. It been 3 years, 2 months, 5 days without you. It just seems like yesterday. WHY???????????????????????????????????????????????????????I was playing with Mike Desiree and she was walking, holding on to me, I seen her little curles. It reminded me so much of you. She just held onto my finger. I didn't want to let her go, I didn't want her to get hurt. She smiled, and suddenly, I felt like I went 15 years back, I though it was you. I thought of you as a 1 year old. You were the same, with the same curles. DESIREE!!!!!!!!!!!Yes, I am crying a lot for you!!!!!!! I do not care what people say, time is very hard and slow. I feel that I am falling apart more and more every day. I see your brothers getting older and talking about you. I wonder and wonder and ask God WHY?????????????????????? Why You ???? I know that I never grieved for you and then when i forgot things, oh how hard it is for me. I go into your room and want to call you. The other day I serve for four, I was serving your dinner. Oh, Desiree, I Love You sooooo much. I know that you knew that and I hope to see you in Heaven. I Love You my "babydoll".

I remember when I started school, I promised that I will finish no matter what. I promised that I will do it for you and your brothers. Their has been many challanges through this journey, but baby I made it. I miss you and which you were there...I looked at the stands, seen everyone else but you............Oh Desiree I miss you sooooooo much, I need you home with me. I remember when you where a baby and I will sit on the grass on the front yard and help you learn how to walk and take many pictures of you. I have memories and I thank God that he didn't take that from me. Desiree, say hi to "Grandma Gloria", she went home and I know that you will help her. You grew up hugging and kissing her and now you have been reunited. I Love You my precious Angel.

It seems like yesterday when you were sitting on my lap. I was playing with your hair, you were wearing your white sweater, white blouse, black pants and your converse. I wish I can go back to that day and trade my life for yours. I really, really miss you. It seems that it just gets harder and harder. The day you left, a piece of me left with you. You were my baby girl, my princess, I lived and work for you, I ask, WHY? I remember you going to school on your little skirts, hot or cold, you look so beautiful. The family has not been the same since you left, we totally feel your presence missing. I look at your picture every day, and ask, WHY? I wish that you were here now. I have your Dad and Brothers, but I need you, my daughter, my friend. I want to talk to you, buy your prom dress, get you your car, meet your friends from high school. Oh Desiree, I need you. I know that you are in heaven and I will see you one day, Why can I see you in my dreams? That is all I want, Is to see you and hold you. Desiree I will be graduating next week. I dedicate all my sleepless nights of homework and projects to your brothers, dad and you my baby doll. I wish you were here chearing for me, WHY?WHY?WHY? . I Love You my precious daughter, Desiree Eileen Ramirez.

hey love!

how u been?

damn, girl i miss u so much!

you have no idea! i was crying the other day cuz i was missing u alot. i miss your beautiful smile and ur laughter just writing this to u makes me want to cry. i love u girl and its been 3 long years that u gone to the father in heaven. sometimes i think abt whats going to happen to us in the future and sometimes i also think when are we going to meet again? when are we going to see each other? i love you babe and i TRULY miss you alot. well i know its been diffrent without you since ur not here but no matter what i will always carry u in my heart. i have a special place to keep u in my heart. i'll miss you my friend. i love seeing your smile and hearing your laughter so much. well baby girl sometimes we go through these things and when its our time to go its our time, but unfortunaley it was ur time to go. it was early but ur in a better place. i still feel like crying while i write this to you. well baby this is all i have to say for now. i love you and miss you! <333

 

'i miss you' i always think about you.i bet if you were here i will probably be playing with you and your brothers.i remember we sometimes play baseball or playing handball with each other.and it's hard to be without you,and i hope you are safe and protected.and i hoped you had a good 13th birthday at boomers.and i knew you were a good sister and daughter.and auntie lorena,and uncle ernie dont feel pain she's safe at heaven.

hey MY beautiful CUZIng ! i don't EVEN know WHERE or HOW TO start words CAn't EXPRESS the way I feel... UR sooo MISSED in this world I know UR in A BETTER place. u HAVE 2 BEAUTIFul CUZINS julissa and DANIEL . julissa IS 2 shes SOO funny SHE thinks SHE 10yrs OLD SHE'S SOO much like me OR should i say just like me omg!! lol.. daniel IS 1 HE LOOKS just like ADRIAN lol SOO cute HE has the RAMIREZ head BIGG o JACK IN THE box HEAD he's A handsome LIL GUY!! you'll MEET THEM one day !!as for MYself I'M okay TRYING TO pick UP THE pieces IN MY LIFE .. I MISS u soo MUCH i love u ILL TALK TO u soon !! XOXOXXO janina, julissa ,DANIEL

DESIREE,IT'S BEEN 3 YEARS MISSING YOU.AS I SIT HERE I WAS REMEMBERING THE DAY THAT YOU SHOWED ME YOUR TEETH (YOUR BRACES WERE OFF).YOU WERE SO HAPPY SHOWING THE BRIGHT AND BEAUTIFUL SMILE OF YOURS.I KNOW YOU USE TO SPEND A LOT OF TIME AT YOUR GRANDMAS. I MISS THOSE DAYS WHEN I CALLED OVER AND YOU WOULD ANSWER THE PHONE,MISS SEEING LAYING ON THE SOFA WATCHING TV AND EATING HOT CHEETOS,AND ESPECIALLY MISS YOU OPENING THE DOOR FOR US AND HUGGING US RIGHT AWAY GIVING US KISSES TO SAY HI TO US.  
 YES,I STILL ASK WHY WHY YOU WHY DID YOU GET ON THAT BIKE. I REMEMBER THAT EASTER SUNDAY LIKE IF IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY.AS WE WERE DRIVING TO LANCASTER YOUR TIO RENE ASKED ME WHAT YOU GUYS DOING FOR THAT DAY AND I TOLD HIM "THERE GETTING TOGETHER AT ERNIE'S SISTER IN VICTORVILLE". I ALWAYS THINK IF I HAD CALLED YOUR MOM AND MADE SOME DIFFERENT PLANS YOU WOULDN'T HAVE GOT ON THAT BIKE AND YOU WOULD  STILL BE HERE WITH ALL OF US. ONLY GOD KNOWS WHY.LOVE YOU VERY MUCH.

Yes these past 3 years have been an eternity for all of us who knew you at one point or another, your family and friends.  Only if we can see you one more time.  Hear your laughter and see that smile will make my heart melt.  Who knows why things happen...that's something we will never find out.  But at least I know I will see you soon one day.  Anything can happen at any time.  We are placed here for a specific purpose and you have fullfilled yours already.  You have shown me that life is too short to worry about the little things.  Live life to the fullest.  Smile everyday and enjoy life with those you love and surround you.  Thank you Desiree for showing me that a young girl like yourself can make a difference on how I view life.  Now that you have the best seat in the house, please save us one too.  Help us and protect us.  We need your guidance everyday.

 

Three years have passed by and eventhough they seem long, they also seem so fast.  Time flies so quickly like a blink of an eye.  I'm sorry for not calling you that day.  Something told me to do so but I figured I'll do it later that day.  Only if I have heard your voice again.  Would have it been harder knowing that I just talked to you a few minutes earlier that day?  I don't know.  The last memory I have of you is the best one I could have asked for....you giving me a kiss in front of your friends, not embarrassed, just being yourself.  Oh Desiree I miss you so much!  I miss my companion.  The person who would always accept and be happy to go with me anywhere.  The girly who would ask me to take her to the movies to see Fat Albert.  "Hey, Hey, Hey!"  Great times. :) 

 

I admit your cousins and uncle, Steven, are not the same since you have left.  I feel like I can't mess around with them like when you were here.  You took a part of me with you.  They are also growing up so it's a bit different now.  Just keep an eye on them.  :)  Like I said before, I wish you would have met Mika Desiree.  I know you would have been her favorite cousin and that you would have spoiled her like everyone else.

 

I will be with your parents tomorrow like the prior years and promise to continue the tradition. 

 

I miss you...I love you...

 

Auntie Liz

XOXOXOX

Hi Desiree, 3 years ago, you left my side. It was Easter Sunday, Why?????

I just can speak too much right now, I wish you will be here now. Why???

I cry every day for you my little Dezi, I wish you were here. Oh, baby, Why ?? This answer will never be answered the way I want it answered. Even if it is  answered, I do not think that I will be satisfied. Dang!!! I remember you saying that. Or, Buy me something!! Remember the "Paletero Man"? Oh, How I miss you my baby. Take care, actually, your are in the best and safest place anyone can ask for, you are with God. I Love You, Lorena, your Mom